Mom's Day!?!?

What Mother's day means to many women is probably as different as the women asked about it. I woke up this morning realizing it was today and that a phone call was needed to my Mom and I needed to remind my spouse to make the effort to contact his mother. Then the idea was which of my children will contact me? It is probable that my oldest son will do his 'duty' call sometime in the morning between church services. It will be short but he will say 'Happy Mother's Day. I love you.' and 'I have to go to the next meeting'. His new wife nor his step son will not say anything unless cohersed. Why? I am not quite sure. Maybe because this is a new family and I live a long way away. When we do get together we do not seem to have any problem talking, but neither of us make a special effort. Maybe that is what needs to happen! Mother's Day is about making that special effort to tell Mom "Hey thanks for being my Mom!" I am beginning to wonder if our expectations as mothers are to high?!
On my way in to the house this evening my youngest son calls me and says he has a surprise for me. He is hiding something behind his back. Well he is only 7 years old and when he gets close he pulls out the reddest, biggest strawberry I had seen in a long time. He says that he wanted to get me a rose but this is the rose. I grin and huge him and tell him that I could enjoy the strawberry longer than I would a cut rose, but thank you for the thought. Then we proceeded to enjoy the sweetness of the strawberry. He took a bite and had juice all over his chin. I sneaked a quick kiss so that I could like all of the juice before he got a hint of what I was doing. He liked the idea so we spent a few more bites exchanging hugs and having fun eating the strawberries.
Why is this day such a problem for me? I am not sure! Maybe because I thought I was through having children and miscarried this week! quite a shock!!!! Maybe because I started being 2nd Mom at the age of 5 to my younger siblings and cousins. Maybe because I have been Mom to many and understand the giving without expectations. Maybe because I have worked so many times in the hospital that I have forgotten, the day has many implications for many women. I am not sure quite what to think or expect. I guess like most days I will go to work and be glad I have a job, a husband who loves me, a young son that is growing (I am not sure how) and that I am alive!!!